Saturday, March 12, 2011

Let me freak out a bit.... Okay better.

I found some grad schools that I want to apply to. It is easy to get overwelmed looking at all the things you need to do. The GRE is the main one. If I have to take the test again I will have to go to Japan... That will be an adventure. An adventure that I really don't want to think about at the moment.

I was looking at a school that I wanted to go to for some time. I then noticed that some of the requirements for entry have changed. I will need 3 short stories that are around 30-40 pages, but I can't go over 100 pages total. ummmm YIKES! YIKES! YIKES! After reading that all I can do is frantilcally pound on my keyboard and hope for some genuis to fly out across the keys. This is insane. I feel insane. My deadline is November and I need pages and pages of work.

The only thought that keeps in my mind.... After I apply to all these grad schools... What if I don't get into any of them? What will I do? I will be in the states again when I find out. I'm scared. Very scared. This is a big turning point and I have left myself unarmed. Not ready. If I don't get in... I don't know. I guess that will be a new adventure and who knows I may end up better for it. But that is for March 2012 me to worry about. March 2011 me needs to write write write. Then edit edit edit. Fill my mind let the words fall out as they may.

Man I'm tense maybe this stress will make a runner out of me. I never thought I would want to exercise ha.

My new short story I'm working on has been tumbling around in my mind for a few days. Since I now know I'll need THREE stories I want to try to make them all a bit different, but me. Maybe a humorous one, twisted one, and heartwarming one.... weee lets do this!

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