From viewing facebook and other status updates from people in Korea... I have seen one thing mentioned a lot more than others... The Bus.
When I was a young fresh faced American who had just got to Korea I got on my first bus... Oh I mean to say I staggered onto my first bus since the bus started to move before I even sat down. I sat wide eyed and in my head all I could think was "I'm going to die. I'm going to die on a bus. No, we are going to kill someone. I will be part of a murder" As the bus rocked and rolled like a roller coster. I got a bit sick. As the bus ran through the red lights I frantically turned my head to see if any cars would hit us. At the end of the ride I had to wobble over to the door while the bus was still moving so I could get out the INSTANT the bus stopped...
Now...
This morning as I smiled with glee as my awesome bus driver ran about 10 red light. He sped down the turn lanes (not planning to turn just using it to get ahead of the cars). I would cheer in my head when he honked at a car who was in front of us. I'd glare when he stopped at a red light. What is he doing? Red lights aren't for stopping!
This morning I realised that when I go back to America I might have some problems in traffic.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Banana Runts
I have been reading another blog about a girl in Korea and I love the way she states things. It is very entertaining. Sometimes I wish I could write like her and be able to make every story in my life a funny/interesting one. I guess it is a bit easier here with the different cultures clashing, but I find that I tend to rush out the story so I can get to the punch line, so everyone can enjoy the story too... However, you need the story and not just the ending... Reading over my writing I can tell where I really enjoyed writing a part and where I rushed something to just get to the next one... The solution... To LOVE all the parts! ha yeah... I'll work on that.
To tell a little story about how things are going at my new school I will introduce you to my new coteachers. Who are fresh and wide-eyed out of college. They are looking to me to know what is going on and I have told them many a time that I'm the last person who knows anything. I just make up my own rules and that has been working wonderously :D. They don't agree. One teacher I will call Sunny and the other Young.
Sunny has somehow lost a game of rock scissors paper and is the teacher in charge of me. I did ask if she lost with Young and she insisted that it was assigned... Yeah Sunny like I'm falling for that one ;). She is really fun to tease and poor thing is an easy target which just gets me going. I wish I wasn't like that and that I wouldn't tease those easy targets, but IT IS JUST TOO GOOD. I don't even have to try hard...
Sunny: This is peach ice tea you can make it.
Me: Just add water?
Sunny: Yes, a little hot water to mix then some cold.
Me: Then it is warm tea not ice...
Then she looks at my serious face (which is the key) and I give her a few seconds and laugh. "Oh you stop tease me!"
Maybe I should say that even the littlest bit of sarcasim gets lost here and it can be either fun or annoying, but right now I'm having fun with it. All in all Sunny is a good soul and I feel bad for her already with having to put up with me.
Young is interesting she is the same age as me, but I feel like she is much older. She always comes into my office (first takes a look at my computer screen ;) )and plans the lessons (big change for my old school and a nice one). She likes to stay and talk with me, but after awhile it gets awkward cause I have nothing else to say... Well I have things to say, but not things I want the whole school to know. They aren't bad things, but when you tell one korean you tell them all and it is weird having someone come up to you the next day and mention a conversation that you had with someone else. It is weird and I don't like it. So I keep conversations to the bare minimum and I don't really say much of interest... However.
Korean co teacher: You get lonely sometimes?
Me: Yeah around Christmas I guess. It was hard last year.
KCT: Ah I see
Next day
Young: You are really lonely.
Me: Huh?
Young: KCT said you are lonely.
Me: Oh yeah... Christmas...
Now the hot topic is my dog Casanova... hahaha. I am interesting. Didn't you know?
To tell a little story about how things are going at my new school I will introduce you to my new coteachers. Who are fresh and wide-eyed out of college. They are looking to me to know what is going on and I have told them many a time that I'm the last person who knows anything. I just make up my own rules and that has been working wonderously :D. They don't agree. One teacher I will call Sunny and the other Young.
Sunny has somehow lost a game of rock scissors paper and is the teacher in charge of me. I did ask if she lost with Young and she insisted that it was assigned... Yeah Sunny like I'm falling for that one ;). She is really fun to tease and poor thing is an easy target which just gets me going. I wish I wasn't like that and that I wouldn't tease those easy targets, but IT IS JUST TOO GOOD. I don't even have to try hard...
Sunny: This is peach ice tea you can make it.
Me: Just add water?
Sunny: Yes, a little hot water to mix then some cold.
Me: Then it is warm tea not ice...
Then she looks at my serious face (which is the key) and I give her a few seconds and laugh. "Oh you stop tease me!"
Maybe I should say that even the littlest bit of sarcasim gets lost here and it can be either fun or annoying, but right now I'm having fun with it. All in all Sunny is a good soul and I feel bad for her already with having to put up with me.
Young is interesting she is the same age as me, but I feel like she is much older. She always comes into my office (first takes a look at my computer screen ;) )and plans the lessons (big change for my old school and a nice one). She likes to stay and talk with me, but after awhile it gets awkward cause I have nothing else to say... Well I have things to say, but not things I want the whole school to know. They aren't bad things, but when you tell one korean you tell them all and it is weird having someone come up to you the next day and mention a conversation that you had with someone else. It is weird and I don't like it. So I keep conversations to the bare minimum and I don't really say much of interest... However.
Korean co teacher: You get lonely sometimes?
Me: Yeah around Christmas I guess. It was hard last year.
KCT: Ah I see
Next day
Young: You are really lonely.
Me: Huh?
Young: KCT said you are lonely.
Me: Oh yeah... Christmas...
Now the hot topic is my dog Casanova... hahaha. I am interesting. Didn't you know?
Sunday, March 27, 2011
So many reasons to smile!
Last week was looooooooooooooooooooong... It wasn't good it wasn't bad it was blah. Last week I kept saying that I just need to get to the next one and I was right, it is Monday (the worst day in the world) and I am having a good one and here are the reasons....
1. All of a sudden the 5th graders have been little angels... I don't know why and I won't question it. The first two weeks they were like the walking dead. Now they are excited about class and they want to take part in everything... Even writing pratice. I didn't think it would keep going, but today is my dreaded 5th grade day and even I had fun... Now that is a reason so smile!
2. They are canceling my VIP lunch and instead I meet with them after lunch time and we will talk and play games. I like this better because.... I get overtime for this since it is class-like and I don't have to try and make conversation in a loud dinning hall. Also we get snacks ;). Now that is a reason to smile!
3. I'm going to America in July. I really can't wait. Yes yes I love Korea, but it is AMERICA... I love America... Call me a dork or whatever or a evil consumer hahah I don't really care. I am going to eat Qdoba and it will be awesome. I will see my mom and dad and my awesome family. Then I get to see my friends. Now that is a reason to smile!
4. In my GRE cards I have a small small stack of words I already know ;). hahahaha now that is a reason to smile!
5. I have a room to myself in the school. For now it is empty and not a soul is in here. This is great for me. When I finish my lesson plans I won't feel guilty about reading or studying. Now that is a reason to smile.
6. There is a great friend that I have here in Korea. I am ashamed to say I haven't been the best friend to her lately. She calls me on it and I can only hope to get better. Now that is a reason to smile!
7. I have had Kalguksu/Shabu Shabu 2 times in two weeks and I'm eating it again tonight! Now THAT it is a reason to smile!
8. I have my own computer at the school and it has internet! NOW THAT IS A REASON TO SMILE!!!!
There are many more so this Monday is a bit different from others. This week is already better and last week is done. I don't need to think about it anymore, but move forward keeping my reasons close :).
Now it is your turn to smile!
1. All of a sudden the 5th graders have been little angels... I don't know why and I won't question it. The first two weeks they were like the walking dead. Now they are excited about class and they want to take part in everything... Even writing pratice. I didn't think it would keep going, but today is my dreaded 5th grade day and even I had fun... Now that is a reason so smile!
2. They are canceling my VIP lunch and instead I meet with them after lunch time and we will talk and play games. I like this better because.... I get overtime for this since it is class-like and I don't have to try and make conversation in a loud dinning hall. Also we get snacks ;). Now that is a reason to smile!
3. I'm going to America in July. I really can't wait. Yes yes I love Korea, but it is AMERICA... I love America... Call me a dork or whatever or a evil consumer hahah I don't really care. I am going to eat Qdoba and it will be awesome. I will see my mom and dad and my awesome family. Then I get to see my friends. Now that is a reason to smile!
4. In my GRE cards I have a small small stack of words I already know ;). hahahaha now that is a reason to smile!
5. I have a room to myself in the school. For now it is empty and not a soul is in here. This is great for me. When I finish my lesson plans I won't feel guilty about reading or studying. Now that is a reason to smile.
6. There is a great friend that I have here in Korea. I am ashamed to say I haven't been the best friend to her lately. She calls me on it and I can only hope to get better. Now that is a reason to smile!
7. I have had Kalguksu/Shabu Shabu 2 times in two weeks and I'm eating it again tonight! Now THAT it is a reason to smile!
8. I have my own computer at the school and it has internet! NOW THAT IS A REASON TO SMILE!!!!
There are many more so this Monday is a bit different from others. This week is already better and last week is done. I don't need to think about it anymore, but move forward keeping my reasons close :).
Now it is your turn to smile!
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Will I be saved from my banality?
Today's word of the day will be banality meaning lack of originality... It isn't that I don't believe that the ideas I have for my stories aren't original it is just how they sound. I want my writing to sound fresh and not to sound boring. I want to give my ideas the breath of life. They need to breathe :).
This week wasn't the best for my writing. I have had a headache for most of this week and I'm not surprised that now that it is Friday my headache is now gone... It could be the thoughts of this weekend finally releasing my aching head, but I think the end of the stress is in sight.
I am hopeful for next week. I will finally have a little bit of space for myself where everyone can't read what I'm writing on my computer or see what I see. I hate having no privacy. Even though the room I move too might not be quiet, but I looked in and they build a whole privacy screen around the desk... awesome!
I have some doubts about what I call the "babysitting room" which is to be my new home at school. I'm not really excited about watching little kids, even though they say I don't have to watch them and that I just have to answer their questions, I'm a little uncomfortable with it.
My school is turning into a hogwan and I don't know how I feel about this.
I realised that I long for quiet. I didn't know how loud my coworkers can talk. I feel like they yell everything and try to talk over eachother all the time. I don't want to sound umm anti feminist, but some women talk way too much and there are 5 women in this small office. I have never been happier for my ipod, but I have to turn it up so high to drown out the voices I don't know the damage that will happen to my ears hahah. I miss my old quiet classroom, but maybe my babysitting room will be better. I can have hope. I can.
In other news I'm excited about a book that I started to write last year. I like having a lot of different projects at one time, and if I get bored with one I can always move to the next one as long as I keep writing... right? :)
I like this distopia book, they are always some of my favorite books to read and I really like mine. The idea is sound and the world is coming together. I'm having a problem with the science part of it, but I'm hoping I can work that out or try to downplay it or dum da dum... Do science research which is what I will end up doing. YIKES!
Anyways I'm tired of changing windows at my computer so no one reads over my shoulder. So lunch time is over anyways and back to work!
This week wasn't the best for my writing. I have had a headache for most of this week and I'm not surprised that now that it is Friday my headache is now gone... It could be the thoughts of this weekend finally releasing my aching head, but I think the end of the stress is in sight.
I am hopeful for next week. I will finally have a little bit of space for myself where everyone can't read what I'm writing on my computer or see what I see. I hate having no privacy. Even though the room I move too might not be quiet, but I looked in and they build a whole privacy screen around the desk... awesome!
I have some doubts about what I call the "babysitting room" which is to be my new home at school. I'm not really excited about watching little kids, even though they say I don't have to watch them and that I just have to answer their questions, I'm a little uncomfortable with it.
My school is turning into a hogwan and I don't know how I feel about this.
I realised that I long for quiet. I didn't know how loud my coworkers can talk. I feel like they yell everything and try to talk over eachother all the time. I don't want to sound umm anti feminist, but some women talk way too much and there are 5 women in this small office. I have never been happier for my ipod, but I have to turn it up so high to drown out the voices I don't know the damage that will happen to my ears hahah. I miss my old quiet classroom, but maybe my babysitting room will be better. I can have hope. I can.
In other news I'm excited about a book that I started to write last year. I like having a lot of different projects at one time, and if I get bored with one I can always move to the next one as long as I keep writing... right? :)
I like this distopia book, they are always some of my favorite books to read and I really like mine. The idea is sound and the world is coming together. I'm having a problem with the science part of it, but I'm hoping I can work that out or try to downplay it or dum da dum... Do science research which is what I will end up doing. YIKES!
Anyways I'm tired of changing windows at my computer so no one reads over my shoulder. So lunch time is over anyways and back to work!
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Am I getting better?
I'm starting my third year of teaching English in Korea. Some still may be shocked because they know about my grammar struggles and spelling issues ;). However, I have made it through and from the start at the small acadamy to this new shiny public school I can only say that I'm getting better...
I can remember my first panic filled days at the hogwan. I had no idea what I was doing or how to teach anything. I talked to fast and I lost my voice. I always had extra time on my hands and I just got tired of trying to entertain the little children.
My next year at public school I still didn't really know what I was doing, but one coteacher showed me how to be an amazing teacher. How to pick games that weren't only fun, but actually made them learn. How to have fun, but pull out the teacher face when I needed it. He was a great teacher and I admired him because he strives to do better at his job when others just do the same things.
This year when I started I may have been tired, but I left that outside the classroom. When I enter the room the students are called to attention. They listen, they work hard, and then we play hard and this time I have learned when we do activities I do them with them and try to have just as much fun :). So far I have gotten many compliments about my energy in class. Maybe some of the teachers find that hard to believe because when I arrive in the morning I'm tired tired tired.... But I manage to find it in me to open the classroom doors, put a smile on, and a bounce in my step. I do this because I remember all the teachers that have worked hard to teach me and I really do owe it to them to do a decent job of it.
Each time the kids learn more and I learn more. This year may be the most tiring, but I think it will be my best work yet.
I can remember my first panic filled days at the hogwan. I had no idea what I was doing or how to teach anything. I talked to fast and I lost my voice. I always had extra time on my hands and I just got tired of trying to entertain the little children.
My next year at public school I still didn't really know what I was doing, but one coteacher showed me how to be an amazing teacher. How to pick games that weren't only fun, but actually made them learn. How to have fun, but pull out the teacher face when I needed it. He was a great teacher and I admired him because he strives to do better at his job when others just do the same things.
This year when I started I may have been tired, but I left that outside the classroom. When I enter the room the students are called to attention. They listen, they work hard, and then we play hard and this time I have learned when we do activities I do them with them and try to have just as much fun :). So far I have gotten many compliments about my energy in class. Maybe some of the teachers find that hard to believe because when I arrive in the morning I'm tired tired tired.... But I manage to find it in me to open the classroom doors, put a smile on, and a bounce in my step. I do this because I remember all the teachers that have worked hard to teach me and I really do owe it to them to do a decent job of it.
Each time the kids learn more and I learn more. This year may be the most tiring, but I think it will be my best work yet.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Look at me! I'm VIP!
I like the sound of the title... ha a little rhyme for you.... and you will find out just why I'm a VIP in a bit ;).
This morning was a rush of good news. They worked out the vacation time for me so I can go home and so I signed up for the GRE test. It will be so good to be back in America even if it is only for about two weeks. I signed up for the test and then ordered 750 vocab cards to study.... Weeee it is study time for me. Lets see if my vocab improves hahaha.
Anyways back to the main reason for this post. My co worker told me that she needed to talk to me. I alway get a little scared about this because when they say that, they look scared.... I guess they have heard about some foreingers that don't handle things too well or they are scared I will be upset. Anyways since my school is really into English (what school isn't here?) they have set up some special programs....
Introducing the VIP lunch with the English Teacher! So every day starting in April I will be eating with three students. I am to eat with them for 30 minutes (since I usually finish lunch early so I can do other things that was the only really annoying part). When my co worker told me I just laughed. It is kindof funny really... They are going to prepare special snacks, I guess, and I need to try and make these poor kids talk to me when they would probably rather eat with their friends and speak Korean. Also it is ironic that the principal told everyone that we aren't allowed to talk during lunch... Well I guess unless you are a VIP, yeah, that's right!
One thing... I don't really want the students to see my eating habits at school. I don't eat a big lunch so they assume I don't like korean food. I don't want to seem snobby to them... You know, like I don't want to eat their food... It is just that I can't eat a huge pile of rice and loads of cabbage. This is going to be interesting....
All in all I think this is odd, but hey I go with the flow I think that is why they like me over here...
The next extra thing I'll be doing is that student will write me letters and I am supposed to correct the mistakes and send them back.
These things are good, but I'm wondering if they count towards overtime... since it isn't teaching... It is a bit confusing.... Anyways I guess being a VIP I can figure it all out.
(I really hope my co worker was serious about special snacks for the VIP hahaha)
This morning was a rush of good news. They worked out the vacation time for me so I can go home and so I signed up for the GRE test. It will be so good to be back in America even if it is only for about two weeks. I signed up for the test and then ordered 750 vocab cards to study.... Weeee it is study time for me. Lets see if my vocab improves hahaha.
Anyways back to the main reason for this post. My co worker told me that she needed to talk to me. I alway get a little scared about this because when they say that, they look scared.... I guess they have heard about some foreingers that don't handle things too well or they are scared I will be upset. Anyways since my school is really into English (what school isn't here?) they have set up some special programs....
Introducing the VIP lunch with the English Teacher! So every day starting in April I will be eating with three students. I am to eat with them for 30 minutes (since I usually finish lunch early so I can do other things that was the only really annoying part). When my co worker told me I just laughed. It is kindof funny really... They are going to prepare special snacks, I guess, and I need to try and make these poor kids talk to me when they would probably rather eat with their friends and speak Korean. Also it is ironic that the principal told everyone that we aren't allowed to talk during lunch... Well I guess unless you are a VIP, yeah, that's right!
One thing... I don't really want the students to see my eating habits at school. I don't eat a big lunch so they assume I don't like korean food. I don't want to seem snobby to them... You know, like I don't want to eat their food... It is just that I can't eat a huge pile of rice and loads of cabbage. This is going to be interesting....
All in all I think this is odd, but hey I go with the flow I think that is why they like me over here...
The next extra thing I'll be doing is that student will write me letters and I am supposed to correct the mistakes and send them back.
These things are good, but I'm wondering if they count towards overtime... since it isn't teaching... It is a bit confusing.... Anyways I guess being a VIP I can figure it all out.
(I really hope my co worker was serious about special snacks for the VIP hahaha)
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Ummm did you just throw poop at me?
Let me start out by saying that in my aparment building there is this old ajuma cleaner and she is kind of crazy. I usually catch her yelling to herself and throwing trash around. When I run into her (most every morning) I avoide eye contact and pretend I don't exsist.
Now I've had my dog for almost a year. I've got him potty trained to go outside. Every morning we go out and I pick up his poop in a plastic bag and tie it shut. Then I throw it away in the bathroom garbage (not the recyling, but in the bathroom trash where, trust me, there are nastier things than my dogs poop). I have been doing this for a looooong time.
Then this morning I threw it away and I saw the ajuma cleaner go into the bathroom after I came out. I was waiting for the elevator and pretending I wasn't there (as usual when I see her). Then I saw something go whizzing by my feet. It was my dogs poop. I kept staring straight ahead and the ajuma starting yelling at me in korean. The elevator door opened and I calmly walked in with her screaming in the background.
Thankfully she never saw my face. It was a mixture of anger and shock. What kind of person throws poop at someone? On my way down I took the stairs to avoide her. What will I do? I see her almost every morning. If she wanted me to do something different she could have said something... oh maybe about 10 months ago... or asked me to get a korean on the phone to explain the problem.
I honestly hope I am never that bitter and angry so I would revert to a animal state (thinking monkey with the whole poop thing) and throw things at people without trying to find a better solution.
I told my coteacher and asked what I did wrong and they said I did nothing wrong since it was a general trash can. They said if she yells at me again that I should call them.... Oh my. Now I have to see the poop throwing ajuma every morning... great... just great....
Now I've had my dog for almost a year. I've got him potty trained to go outside. Every morning we go out and I pick up his poop in a plastic bag and tie it shut. Then I throw it away in the bathroom garbage (not the recyling, but in the bathroom trash where, trust me, there are nastier things than my dogs poop). I have been doing this for a looooong time.
Then this morning I threw it away and I saw the ajuma cleaner go into the bathroom after I came out. I was waiting for the elevator and pretending I wasn't there (as usual when I see her). Then I saw something go whizzing by my feet. It was my dogs poop. I kept staring straight ahead and the ajuma starting yelling at me in korean. The elevator door opened and I calmly walked in with her screaming in the background.
Thankfully she never saw my face. It was a mixture of anger and shock. What kind of person throws poop at someone? On my way down I took the stairs to avoide her. What will I do? I see her almost every morning. If she wanted me to do something different she could have said something... oh maybe about 10 months ago... or asked me to get a korean on the phone to explain the problem.
I honestly hope I am never that bitter and angry so I would revert to a animal state (thinking monkey with the whole poop thing) and throw things at people without trying to find a better solution.
I told my coteacher and asked what I did wrong and they said I did nothing wrong since it was a general trash can. They said if she yells at me again that I should call them.... Oh my. Now I have to see the poop throwing ajuma every morning... great... just great....
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Let me freak out a bit.... Okay better.
I found some grad schools that I want to apply to. It is easy to get overwelmed looking at all the things you need to do. The GRE is the main one. If I have to take the test again I will have to go to Japan... That will be an adventure. An adventure that I really don't want to think about at the moment.
I was looking at a school that I wanted to go to for some time. I then noticed that some of the requirements for entry have changed. I will need 3 short stories that are around 30-40 pages, but I can't go over 100 pages total. ummmm YIKES! YIKES! YIKES! After reading that all I can do is frantilcally pound on my keyboard and hope for some genuis to fly out across the keys. This is insane. I feel insane. My deadline is November and I need pages and pages of work.
The only thought that keeps in my mind.... After I apply to all these grad schools... What if I don't get into any of them? What will I do? I will be in the states again when I find out. I'm scared. Very scared. This is a big turning point and I have left myself unarmed. Not ready. If I don't get in... I don't know. I guess that will be a new adventure and who knows I may end up better for it. But that is for March 2012 me to worry about. March 2011 me needs to write write write. Then edit edit edit. Fill my mind let the words fall out as they may.
Man I'm tense maybe this stress will make a runner out of me. I never thought I would want to exercise ha.
My new short story I'm working on has been tumbling around in my mind for a few days. Since I now know I'll need THREE stories I want to try to make them all a bit different, but me. Maybe a humorous one, twisted one, and heartwarming one.... weee lets do this!
I was looking at a school that I wanted to go to for some time. I then noticed that some of the requirements for entry have changed. I will need 3 short stories that are around 30-40 pages, but I can't go over 100 pages total. ummmm YIKES! YIKES! YIKES! After reading that all I can do is frantilcally pound on my keyboard and hope for some genuis to fly out across the keys. This is insane. I feel insane. My deadline is November and I need pages and pages of work.
The only thought that keeps in my mind.... After I apply to all these grad schools... What if I don't get into any of them? What will I do? I will be in the states again when I find out. I'm scared. Very scared. This is a big turning point and I have left myself unarmed. Not ready. If I don't get in... I don't know. I guess that will be a new adventure and who knows I may end up better for it. But that is for March 2012 me to worry about. March 2011 me needs to write write write. Then edit edit edit. Fill my mind let the words fall out as they may.
Man I'm tense maybe this stress will make a runner out of me. I never thought I would want to exercise ha.
My new short story I'm working on has been tumbling around in my mind for a few days. Since I now know I'll need THREE stories I want to try to make them all a bit different, but me. Maybe a humorous one, twisted one, and heartwarming one.... weee lets do this!
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Shaaaa--BANG
All new starts are rough. Most nights I watch tv show after tv show until it is too late and I go to bed. Today, I was starting something new. I am actually pretty proud of myself. I only watched 40 minutes of tv today... Whooo yay me! I finished a book, drug my dog outside, and played my dusty guitar. I want to try and play my guitar everyday this month.I want to regain ground so I can go back to lessons in April... We'll see how the money thing works out.
As far as writing ha, that is taking time. One bad sentence at a time. I hammer those buggers out in some fierce editing :).
Anyways things are pretty crazy at my school. I always think that things aren't really that bad, but sometimes my coworkers like to just make it a bit dramatic. Really. That is all I'll say hahaha.
I have some great sixth graders this year. Last year the sixth grade didn't care... at all. This year they are... dum dum dum.... Asking questions! What??????? They are really fun and I am hoping with all my heart strings that they will stay this way. So I'm trying extra hard to stay motivated during class. Their English is awesome too. They understand me! What??????????? hahaha
In my 6-2 class there is this sweet boy that sits in the front and I swear his attention never wavers. He takes it all in. He also helps me move desks and is just a sweetheart in general. It is times like this when I actually wish I could talk to the moms and say what a wonderful child they have. Really. I wish I could.
As for the fifth... yeah.... I have nothing to say.... hahaha
As far as writing ha, that is taking time. One bad sentence at a time. I hammer those buggers out in some fierce editing :).
Anyways things are pretty crazy at my school. I always think that things aren't really that bad, but sometimes my coworkers like to just make it a bit dramatic. Really. That is all I'll say hahaha.
I have some great sixth graders this year. Last year the sixth grade didn't care... at all. This year they are... dum dum dum.... Asking questions! What??????? They are really fun and I am hoping with all my heart strings that they will stay this way. So I'm trying extra hard to stay motivated during class. Their English is awesome too. They understand me! What??????????? hahaha
In my 6-2 class there is this sweet boy that sits in the front and I swear his attention never wavers. He takes it all in. He also helps me move desks and is just a sweetheart in general. It is times like this when I actually wish I could talk to the moms and say what a wonderful child they have. Really. I wish I could.
As for the fifth... yeah.... I have nothing to say.... hahaha
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
What have I done?
As I finished the last few weeks at my old school. I was trying to think of the things I said I would do this last year...
Save money
Eat Healthy
Write everyday
Look for Grad schools
A year is a long time. That is what I always tell myself. I have time. The truth is that my time is running out. If I want to get into grad school next fall I have to apply THIS fall. I have to get down to it. I have to force myself. How did I become this way? haha I know... I was always this way. I put things off cause I could. I could get away with last minute papers and projects because somehow I just could. I never had to study hard for tests and actually memorizing lines for plays wasn't that hard for me. I am lazy.
Somehow I don't think that the grad schools I want to get into will be interested in my last minute stories. I have to edit and put the hard work into something new. I know what I can do when I try and work hard. I have seen some awesome things that I have done... (yes I will brag a bit haha). I know the work I do can be good. I don't want good. I want great. The characters I created deserve it. The people who I love deserve it. I deserve it.
I let my talent get really really rusty. It is hard for me to just put down a sentence and I am super frustrated that I let myself get this way. After all the work I did my last two years of college to get my writing where it should be....
I can't think about that. It is done. It can only go up from here and I would be embarassed if anyone read anything I wrote now. I have 7 to 8 months. NOT ENOUGH TIME. This is how it ended up.
So instead of watching TV at school, I'm going to read (really the best thing besides writing for a writer). Instead of watching TV at home, I'm going to walk my dog and then write.
I need to get this old brain working again ;). Got some awesome ideas for grad school. Maybe I'll post them hahah whoo!
Save money
Eat Healthy
Write everyday
Look for Grad schools
A year is a long time. That is what I always tell myself. I have time. The truth is that my time is running out. If I want to get into grad school next fall I have to apply THIS fall. I have to get down to it. I have to force myself. How did I become this way? haha I know... I was always this way. I put things off cause I could. I could get away with last minute papers and projects because somehow I just could. I never had to study hard for tests and actually memorizing lines for plays wasn't that hard for me. I am lazy.
Somehow I don't think that the grad schools I want to get into will be interested in my last minute stories. I have to edit and put the hard work into something new. I know what I can do when I try and work hard. I have seen some awesome things that I have done... (yes I will brag a bit haha). I know the work I do can be good. I don't want good. I want great. The characters I created deserve it. The people who I love deserve it. I deserve it.
I let my talent get really really rusty. It is hard for me to just put down a sentence and I am super frustrated that I let myself get this way. After all the work I did my last two years of college to get my writing where it should be....
I can't think about that. It is done. It can only go up from here and I would be embarassed if anyone read anything I wrote now. I have 7 to 8 months. NOT ENOUGH TIME. This is how it ended up.
So instead of watching TV at school, I'm going to read (really the best thing besides writing for a writer). Instead of watching TV at home, I'm going to walk my dog and then write.
I need to get this old brain working again ;). Got some awesome ideas for grad school. Maybe I'll post them hahah whoo!
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